Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Packing the Essentials for Europe


It was a pretty surreal experience packing up my life on St. Thomas.  I had been there for 10 years, apparently acquired a lot of stuff & had become somewhat of a pack rat.  I had moved into my perfectly sized studio apartment only 2 years previous and didn’t really think that I had that much stuff! 

The plan was, to pack my suitcases with the essential for Europe, store some things in a storage space at Tillett Gardens and the rest, well; I didn’t think there would be that much left.

Now, the phrase ‘essential for Europe’ was a little tricky.  There was great debate among my friends and I about whether 3 suitcases and my personal item were too much.  Please keep in mind 1. I am a girl 2. The weather this time of year is tricky and 3. Well, lets just say that I like options!!!

Step one was to invite my Fashion-ista friend Lisa over, have a couple of drinks & go through my closet.  I was instructed not to pack or save anything that was ripped, stained, need repairing or didn’t fit correctly.  I also had a rule of my own, that if I hadn’t worn it since I had moved, it clearly wasn’t moving again.  However, in hind-sight, my rule kind of sucked, since I had lived in the TROPICS and was moving to a more uhhh temperate climate and let’s just say, I could now use a couple of more of those long sleeved shirts and a less of the tank tops :/ 

Step two was to go through the rest of my apartment & decide what should be stored & what should be given away.  THIS was a little easier, since I really didn’t have that much space to keep a lot of kitchen or home furnishings.

Step three, probably the hardest, was to organize my art studio.  This is where the pack rat in me really came out.  I am an artist that uses a lot of recycled & repurposed items in creations, I like to experiment with different medias and try new mediums. What can I say?!

On the last night that I spent in my apartment, July 30th I remember having kind of an epiphany.  In the previous week, I had disassembled my gallery, sold all of the art supplies from my art supply store, had packed up my suitcases, stored 10 plastic cartons & given away or sold 3/4 of my possession.  It all kind of hit me, what I was doing and whether or not I was crazy.  So, I got out my computer and wrote for this blog.  Here is an excerpt:

“I keep reminding myself that I am only packing, organizing and giving away, THINGS.  Inanimate objects that can always be replaced.  And I guess that I am replacing them with other, living things that are so much more meaningful in life.  Love and Happiness and Adventure and Inspiration, things that every human needs to survive.  Do I REALLY think that I will miss my BCBG Tutu skirt in Denmark?!  Well… maybe a little. 

Maybe it is these items that bring me comfort and a feeling of stability, the same comfort and stability that I feel when I come home to my little apartment.  It is mine and the Tutu skirt is mine and… breath in, breath out.  Focus.  Sip of vodka/soda… focus. 

Do I feel like as long as I have all of this stuff I am ok?  Should I be repeating the mantra “Less is More” and making some sort of correlation about  ‘baggage’? 

Wow.  There you have it!  Funny that in the last 2 years I have rated all of the guys that I have dated with how much ‘baggage’ they have.  Everyone has a ‘personal item’ and most have a ‘carry-on’.  However, if you have ‘checked baggage’ (divorced or kids), let alone ‘additional items’ (jail time, alcoholic, drug abuser, no job, no car ((this is important on St. Thomas!)), or no close-toed shoes ((one of my quirks)),) serious consideration has to be made. 

So, should I be thinking about how much baggage I am taking with me?  I mean, come on ladies, it’s 3 months!  Are 2 checked bags too many?”

Which brings me to really wishing that I had packed more warm clothes.  And the fact that I DO feel lighter, freer and a little liberated not having an apartment, a car, any keys or possessions to bog down my life.  I definitely purged a lot of stuff and a lot of ‘baggage’ that I may have been carrying around with me.  I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. 

The experience overall was life changing and completely worth it, however, I do miss the Tutu skirt from BCBG & cannot wait to wear it again :) 


2 comments:

  1. So glad to know you at least KEPT the skirt, lol! As someone whose accumulated life treasures have been whittled down to ten tubs stored in my bestie's basement back in Colorado, your experience really resonates. You so accurately describe the fascinating see-sawing between the grief of letting go and the liberation of being unburdened, ready to embrace the possibility promised by such a courageous risk. I'll bet you weren't questioning your sanity as soon as you saw that exquisite castle!!! A tip of my tiara to you.

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  2. i can relate to this post :)
    i've packed my life up into two suitcases and started all over 3 times (so far) in my life. it was never easy and i've never felt freer doing it.
    i'm happy for you and your new adventure in life.
    xoxo

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