It was a pretty surreal experience packing up my
life on St. Thomas. I had been
there for 10 years, apparently acquired a lot of stuff & had become
somewhat of a pack rat. I had
moved into my perfectly sized studio apartment only 2 years previous and didn’t
really think that I had that much stuff!
The plan was, to pack my suitcases with the
essential for Europe, store some things in a storage space at Tillett Gardens
and the rest, well; I didn’t think there would be that much left.
Now, the phrase ‘essential for Europe’ was a little
tricky. There was great debate
among my friends and I about whether 3 suitcases and my personal item were too
much. Please keep in mind 1. I am
a girl 2. The weather this time of year is tricky and 3. Well, lets just say that I like
options!!!
Step one was to invite my Fashion-ista friend Lisa
over, have a couple of drinks & go through my closet. I was instructed not to pack or save
anything that was ripped, stained, need repairing or didn’t fit correctly. I also had a rule of my own, that if I
hadn’t worn it since I had moved, it clearly wasn’t moving again. However, in hind-sight, my rule kind of
sucked, since I had lived in the TROPICS and was moving to a more uhhh
temperate climate and let’s just say, I could now use a couple of more of those
long sleeved shirts and a less of the tank tops :/
Step two was to go through the rest of my apartment
& decide what should be stored & what should be given away. THIS was a little easier, since I
really didn’t have that much space to keep a lot of kitchen or home
furnishings.
Step three, probably the hardest, was to organize
my art studio. This is where the
pack rat in me really came out. I
am an artist that uses a lot of recycled & repurposed items in
creations, I like to experiment
with different medias and try new mediums. What can I say?!
On the last night that I spent in my apartment,
July 30th I remember having kind of an epiphany. In the previous week, I had
disassembled my gallery, sold all of the art supplies from my art supply store, had packed up my suitcases, stored 10 plastic cartons & given away or sold 3/4 of my possession. It all kind of
hit me, what I was doing and whether or not I was crazy. So, I got out my computer and wrote for
this blog. Here is an excerpt:
“I keep reminding myself that I am only
packing, organizing and giving away, THINGS. Inanimate objects that can always be replaced. And I guess that I am replacing them
with other, living things that are so much more meaningful in life. Love and Happiness and Adventure and
Inspiration, things that every human needs to survive. Do I REALLY think that I will miss my
BCBG Tutu skirt in Denmark?! Well…
maybe a little.
Maybe it is these items that bring me
comfort and a feeling of stability, the same comfort and stability that I feel
when I come home to my little apartment.
It is mine and the Tutu skirt is mine and… breath in, breath out. Focus. Sip of vodka/soda… focus.
Do I feel like as long as I have all of
this stuff I am ok? Should I be
repeating the mantra “Less is More” and making some sort of correlation
about ‘baggage’?
Wow.
There you have it! Funny
that in the last 2 years I have rated all of the guys that I have dated with
how much ‘baggage’ they have.
Everyone has a ‘personal item’ and most have a ‘carry-on’. However, if you have ‘checked baggage’
(divorced or kids), let alone ‘additional items’ (jail time, alcoholic, drug
abuser, no job, no car ((this is important on St. Thomas!)), or no close-toed
shoes ((one of my quirks)),) serious consideration has to be made.
So, should I be thinking about how much
baggage I am taking with me? I
mean, come on ladies, it’s 3 months!
Are 2 checked bags too many?”
Which brings me to really wishing that I had packed
more warm clothes. And the fact
that I DO feel lighter, freer and a little liberated not having an apartment, a
car, any keys or possessions to bog down my life. I definitely purged a lot of stuff and a lot of ‘baggage’
that I may have been carrying around with me. I feel as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders.
The experience overall was life changing and completely worth it, however, I do miss the Tutu skirt from BCBG & cannot wait to wear it again :)

